The Answer to the Dots: Derm Weighs In!

I took my crazy Rachel body to the dermatologist’s this morning, in order to ascertain what the fudgie-the-whale is going on with my weird leg spots. Thankfully, my husband was able to take yet another morning off, despite it being another week of his new faculty orientation. A side note about that whole thing is how silly the military is about some things: why is he having to spend weeks orienteering himself to a campus at which he just spent his last full year? I’m pretty sure he knows where all the bathrooms are, and how to find the library?

I know I’ve mentioned the leg torture machine, here and there. This is the CPM machine, with my leg bending at 70-degrees. I have to use it 6-hours a day. I put my leg in, and it bends my leg to a prescribed degree, then bends it back to neutral, over and over again, until the end of time. It’s truly the best time ever.

I know I’ve mentioned the leg torture machine, here and there. This is the CPM machine, with my leg bending at 70-degrees. I have to use it 6-hours a day. I put my leg in, and it bends my leg to a prescribed degree, then bends it back to neutral, over and over again, until the end of time. It’s truly the best time ever.

 

I’ve been out of the “working” world for so long, that I get ambitious for a 9 am appointment, thinking that I can shower and get my makeup on, you know, look human, beforehand. I get the idea that if I get up at 7-7:30, I can accomplish the goal of leaving by 8:30, and be on time. Like always though, I left in sweatpants and a t-shirt, with my teeth brushed, and nothing more.

 

Honestly, if I had to get a real job again, I think it would be tragic for everyone. The poor peoples of the public sphere would be forced to see me straggly-haired and hideous, because I simply cannot stop snooze-buttoning, and/or I would drive my family crazy with flurrying around the house to get public-ready.

 

One of my favorite pictures of Mew from this week. He is a super anti-social cat, but he adores me, and his evening snuggles against my chest. This is his jealous face when I dared to give Bear a little scratch during Mew’s time. I thought it was adorable. My favorite part of this photo was that when I showed it to Bryon, he totally didn’t get it. He was like, “What? it’s the cats??” Non-cat people don’t get their little personalities. I think I might be crazy, and recognizing it is the first sign. I don’t want to do anything about it, but I do recognize it.

One of my favorite pictures of Mew from this week. He is a super anti-social cat, but he adores me, and his evening snuggles against my chest. This is his jealous face when I dared to give Bear a little scratch during Mew’s time. I thought it was adorable. My favorite part of this photo was that when I showed it to Bryon, he totally didn’t get it. He was like, “What? it’s the cats??” Non-cat people don’t get their little personalities. I think I might be crazy, and recognizing it is the first sign. I don’t want to do anything about it, but I do recognize it.

Anyway, back to the dermatologist! I couldn’t believe how busy this place was for a 9 am appointment! She’d already seen and cleared patients before we’d gotten there. I’m impressed with someone who is up and working before 9 am, on a Monday morning (back to my previous morning laziness). One thing chronic illness will get you, if you can afford it, (thank goodness for that!) is the ability to sleep in, on a Monday morning, without judgement.

 

The best part of this appointment was that it was totally unnecessary. But, of course I couldn’t cancel it because of the whole, “we’ll charge you $50 if you don’t cancel it by 5 pm the day before,” which was Friday. This is what my leg looked like this morning when we went in, despite the hideousness that it was last week:

Two things come to mind when i see this: first, i’m almost healed from the plague I had last week: and second, I used to have wicked calf muscles. Damn, it’s going to take a lot of work to get back to normal. Don’t surgeons know that I’m over 40. It takes 10x the amount of work to gain muscle and tone we lose when we lose it! Gaaaah! Not looking forward to this

Two things come to mind when i see this: first, i’m almost healed from the plague I had last week: and second, I used to have wicked calf muscles. Damn, it’s going to take a lot of work to get back to normal. Don’t surgeons know that I’m over 40. It takes 10x the amount of work to gain muscle and tone we lose when we lose it! Gaaaah! Not looking forward to this


I was pretty sure that this was going to be a waste of time, or that worse, she was going to be willing to take a biopsy, “just in case.” No one wants their skin sliced and diced just for the hell of it. Instead, she was the common-sense fairy, sent to deliver the most ridiculous diagnosis I’ve ever heard, and to both put all my fears to rest, and to make me feel like I’m, indeed, the most broken body in the universe.

All prepped for slicing and dicing me, if the need arose. Phew. It did not.

All prepped for slicing and dicing me, if the need arose. Phew. It did not.

 

I had an allergic reaction to, wait for it…Cold.

 

I did not have frost-bite. Apparently, that presents differently, so let’s be exceptionally clear. I had an allergic reaction to cold. She had a complicated name to what the rash is called, with the suffix “dermis” in there somewhere. I tried to file it away for this very purpose, so I could sound smart and official; however, I forgot it before I even left the exam room.

 

Me: What did she call it, exactly?

Bryon: I don’t know? Something medical.

Me: You are not helpful.

Bryon: Never said I was.

 

Anyway, all the other potential diagnoses were complete garbage. Shingles doesn’t go away that quickly. Vasculitis doesn’t start with a bug-bite presentation the way this did. Frostbite, right out. This was an allergic reaction, and it was specifically obvious to cold being present on my skin 24/7. Apparently, the histamines just build up, and build up, and then say, “nope, had enough.”

 

Oddly enough, I was pretty sure it wasn’t frostbite to begin with, as I’ve had frostbite on my face before, from headaches and ice packs on my face, forehead and jaws. When headaches go on for days, sometimes the ice sits there for hours upon hours and I get patches of frostbite. It’s normally just red and patchy. It never looks like what happened on my leg. I was willing to believe the marks on my leg showed up in the “shape” of the ice placed on the area, but it still seemed a little far-fetched. So, I’m glad I have an easier to believe diagnosis; even if it is a silly one.

 

Oh, and apparently, it’s quite unusual. Yep, of course it is. When she said that, I was like, duh!

 

So, moving forward I have to remember that I am technically “allergic” to the cold, and I should be careful of over-exposure. I plan to use this to my advantage, pushing my “allergy” as a reason to avoid cold weather activities which I already loathe. There shall be no snow shoveling (as if Bryon would let me), no sledding, no snow….fill in the blank, of any kind. There shall be no winter’ing. In other words, I shall forever forth experience winter indoors, from the warmth of the fireplace, waiting to greet my boy with hot chocolate, as he comes in, pink-cheeked and wet with the moisture of hell-season.

 

Allergies. The perfect excuse to avoid something we hate anyway. Can I be allergic to uncomfortable conversations, social situations, and meeting new people?

 

In totally unrelated news, when we arrived home from our excursion to the dermatologist, I discovered that the cats had some sort of extreme play session that landed this toy, which came from downstairs, into the toilet, upstairs. I’m not sure if this means they really had a raucous good time; or, if they are telling me that they hate this toy so much that they had to deeply coordinate this maneuver to throw it out. Either way, it’s now in the trash. Crazy cats. With their crazy cat lady mama.

For some reason, two of my three cats are obsessed with this toilet. No matter how much fresh water they have, they drink out of it. When they aren’t drinking out of it, they are examining it. When I’m on it, they are watching. When I’m not, they are wondering when I’ll be on it next. Cats are weird.

For some reason, two of my three cats are obsessed with this toilet. No matter how much fresh water they have, they drink out of it. When they aren’t drinking out of it, they are examining it. When I’m on it, they are watching. When I’m not, they are wondering when I’ll be on it next. Cats are weird.

 

Oh…and at least this time, for a weird dermatology thing, we didn’t get caught, “humping,” as my son says, like at the lip biopsy appointment a few months back. Nope. On our best behavior.

 

I’m having a hard time transitioning my writing from M.A./Ph.D writing to undergrad. So my paper topic is way too big and too in-depth for a 15-page paper. I have an outline/plan for what could amount for a dissertation or a book. My professor keeps telling me so, and to narrow. I know I need to! But, this weekend, working on the big picture took me two solid days. This was the result: judgemental kitties who didn’t get enough attention while i worked away at my lap desk. Sorry Homer and Bear. Lots of treats coming your way.

I’m having a hard time transitioning my writing from M.A./Ph.D writing to undergrad. So my paper topic is way too big and too in-depth for a 15-page paper. I have an outline/plan for what could amount for a dissertation or a book. My professor keeps telling me so, and to narrow. I know I need to! But, this weekend, working on the big picture took me two solid days. This was the result: judgemental kitties who didn’t get enough attention while i worked away at my lap desk. Sorry Homer and Bear. Lots of treats coming your way.